my name is jade
i would say im a girl interupted because...
one i have bipolar, which when im depressed ill just feel like being alone, but when im manic then i can do all sorts of crazy things.
i get angry and aggitated and shout at my boyfriend for no reason, ill throw things when im on my own ect.
when im manic ill get an impulse to do somthing, anything, like once at night i decided to walk from my house to swanage, which is about 10 miles at 3am, without caring who i was gonna worry.
when i get drunk i do really stupid things, and enjoy making people feel worried about me, but i really dont know why i do these things, i guess i just need to feel drama in my life.
sometime i cut myself, at first i thought it was for pain because i suffer from fibromyalgia but then i realised i did it because i was bored and i like the look of blood trickling down my arm.
if im in a class like at uni or college, i get along with many people but if there is one person who dosnt like me ill damn well make sure they think im psycho, for example.
when i was in college there was this girl called vanessa, she was foregn, my tutor knew me from a previous course and so did a few of the other students, i was always late and brang in work not in time and i was known for being outspoken.
anyway oneday we were talking in group when i interupted vanessa to ask the tutor a quesation, at the time nothing happened.
but a few days later i found vanessa had complained about me to the head saying i was rude and made her feel uneasy and that i overpowerd her. my tutor said she knew me and that i woudnt do that on perpose, which i didnt, but from thatday on i made sure i made vanessa feel uneasy whenever we crossed paths, she complined alot about other people too so i didnt feel quilty, but i would stair at her from nacross the room untill she looked away.
am i sick? nah maybe just bitchy from time to time, because i really am a nice person once you get to know me, i was bullied bu bitches at school so maybe i just find it satisfiying when i can get my own back..
anyway... ive proberly said too much
anyway thats me jade, feel free to think im mad now